Will my self-esteen ever return?

And the answer is...sorta not really.

June 20, 1999
"I talked to Greg.  I saw his mom in Blockbuster and when I came home my mom told me he had called.  I was excited to hear his voice again.  Its like five years have gone by.  I had so much to say, but very little time to talk.  He said, 'I want to see you again,' and I wanted to throw up.  I'm at such an awkward stage: braces, acne, and hair that was once cut too short.  But eventually, come August, the braces will come off and my face will clear up.  Will my self-esteem ever return?  Probably not. 
Work hasn't been so great.  I was stocking the other day and somehow got a black mark on my face.  It was there on my face all fucking day.  I felt like the big dummy that everyone laughs about behind her back."