Day five: I've done everything pretty I can do.

November 16, 1999
"Gary, the drum major, said something about the hottest girls in band.  I knew right then and there that I was no where near that list - that I would never come close.  Then, later on, as I was sitting on the floor, lost in my world of thoughts, Stanley made a comment that I didn't quite know how to take.  He said, "I think you're pretty, Amber."  I didn't really believe him.  I've done evertything to be pretty that I can do: I got contacts, braces, and I'm now on Accutane to clear up my acne.  I guess there's not potential for me."